I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for everything I've done,
Making it dark when we had the sun,
Stitching up the holes I've made,
Overreacting when things were okay,
Rambling on about how things are my fault,
Regretting not answering all those times you called,
Yelling at you when I had no idea why,
Forgetting how hard it is to see me cry,
Opening up when I needed to stay closed,
Realizing how much I left you alone,
Eating up all your words and using them against you,
Verifying that you loved me because I didn't believe you,
Earning your respect and then losing it again,
Running away when you needed a friend,
Yearning for more when you gave me the world,
Trying to hold you straight when you twisted and twirled,
Hating when you kept me at the end of the line,
Ignoring you when you just wanted some time,
Not returning all that I still owe you,
Giving up when things didn't go how I wanted them to.

Even though the journey could have been a little better,
We sure as hell got through it together.
If there's one thing I know that I do,
It's unconditionally loving you.
And that is something I will never be sorry for.

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Always?
Believe me, I'm barely breathing.
Can't you see it through my eyes?
Don't you feel my heart beat?
Even though you promised me you'd stay,
God's still the only one here for me.
Hell burns around your ankles,
Igniting your cold eyes.
Jog your memory,
Kaleidoscope thoughts cloud up your mind.
Listen to what I say,
Maybe you'll finally realize
Nothing can take the pain away.
Open your heart to someone else, but think of me.
Please, just let me rot on my own.
Quit playing these pointless games,
Razor sharp to my soul.
Someday you'll see the damage you've done.
Tell me why you did it.
Uncover what you've hidden from me,
Vast reasons, spreading for miles.
Why did you leave me?
X-ray my heart, see how it's broken?
You need to see what you've destroyed!
Zip up the broken pieces and leave me alone.