Now what?

What am I supposed to do now that everything's said and done? Now that everyone has moved on to bigger and better things? Do I move on too? Am I supposed to make everything change at the snap of my fingers? Do I make everything disappear? Do I sit here and do nothing? Should I feel ashamed? Lost? Stupid? Immature? Embarrassed? How do I erase all these things that I look back on and feel so digusted at myself? Everyone tells me it's okay, but it's not okay! It's not okay with me! But it has to be, doesn't it? No one's going to stay behind with me, stay in the past and help me move on. They shouldn't have to! I need to be my own burden, not someone else's! I have to do it all myself. Right?I've got all these questions and no one can answer them but me and God. It's no one's fault but my own, I know that. But what do I do? How can I keep all these thoughts in my head? How can I move on with no one to help me? Why is this so hard? Why am I here, asking all these questions?It's all my fault. That's my only excuse, and I'm going to have to stick to it. I shouldn't be so selfish as to put all of this on the people I love. They don't deserve the consequences for the things I've done and the stupid, selfish mistakes I've made! No one deserves that but me! No one should have to go through that but the person who created the problem. Me.