Lemonhead.

Pain. Real pain.
Not losing a family pet.
Not getting your sucker snatched away from you as a little kid.
Not falling and scraping your knee, or breaking a bone.
Real pain.
Like losing your best friend.
Like losing all you've ever loved.
Like being alone and having nothing.
When things hit you all at once and it knocks you down.
And when it takes you forever to get back up, and when you do,
It knocks you down again.
Pain. Real pain.
It makes your look on life a little different.
You appreciate more...think about things more...
But do you know what it feels like?
It feel like every good moment is going to be surrounded by pain. Like a lemonhead. You have to suck on it for forever and go through the horribly sour crap to get to that five seconds of sweet stuff in the middle.
And just like that, the good stuff is gone. In order to get more, you have to go through that long period of pain just to get to that little good thing.
I don't know if I'm strong enough to do that my entire life.
But I know God made it this way on purpose, and that he'll get me through it one way or another.